[NOTE] exactly my question.

First of all,

WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING??!!

exactly, the question I would ask for myself right now.

But then I remember, If I tell these overflowing feelings to anyone, no one cares.

It is always Allah who never judges me.

It is always Allah who is ready to listen to me.

And the best way? Oh It's dzikrullah.

I think, Allah is enough for me. That's it.