[Note] unclear mind

I got a shocking news yesterday, One of my close family pass away. She is one of the closest frined of my mom. We've been together since I was a child. Our house is side by side, If we need everything we would go to her house. I still can not believe it happened.

It left me thinking, also crying.

How our life is not ours, It belongs to Allah and Allah only. He can take it whenever He wants. whether we are ready or not.

that is why, we should be ready anytime. but. what you actually do? does we ready when the time comes? and what if we pass away in suul khotimah? what if we pass away whe we are not ready?

what if?

My head hurts since yesterday, and how my feeling is not good. I have so many things going around my head. I can not help but overthinking.

But, one thing I should know that we got no time. 

We have no time for that. Sad is sad, Mourning is mourning. But "Verily we belong to Allah, and verily to Him do we return." this phrase is not another phrase. It is a reminder, not only for me but also for all of us. Time is ticking. and who knows except Allah, when our time will be run out. 

We don't know.

what we can do now is doing our best in everything we do. That is not easy I know. but If we don't do it as best as we can now, when will we do it? when we are ready? and when is exactly that will gonna happen?

what a morning thoughts.